What scares you?
Oh just about everything. Fear has a nice grip on me lately. Fearful I won’t have enough. Not enough money for sure. Not enough interest in my work, that’s always a given. Certainly not enough time to finish everything. Don’t get me started about raising well rounded healthy human beings.
I could stand to revisit The Power of Now. I talked about how that book helped me completely get rid of my fear of flying. It helps reel you back in to present time when you find your thoughts racing light years ahead already feeling that impact of the imagined doom.
The message is simple be present.
Although that book reminds me I can not fear what has not already happened I feel a different fear. The fear that nothing will ever happen. No real direction with my photography no progression with the blog. I guess that really boils down to one things fear of rejection or worse failure.
I realize now the relationship between that fear of failure and the filling the void. Why do we fill the void? Because we are too afraid to confront what is really bothering us and what’s really bothering us is too painful to address and it means we have to admit something, we failed.
Why is it so hard to accept failure. We are so forgiving of others but when it comes to ourselves, we beat ourselves up. Badly. Sometimes accepting is not enough either. If I had a dime for every time I told myself “OK Lindsey let it go you’re just stressed, next time we’ll handle things better. The pattern becomes recognizable and you feel as if you are a constant state of flux between feelings of calm and going through the roof. If you are a parent with siblings you know this feeling well. I try not to uphold myself to the highest of standards, I know I do a decent job with my kids. Doesn’t mean that from time to time I feel like I’m failing and need some parenting myself. I guess we all do.
What about you?
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