Last week I talked about my newly rekindled love for film, roll film. I take Polaroids all the time, that’s a given, but what I haven’t explored is 120, medium format. How do I explain medium format to my non photog friends? It has to with with image sensors and size of the film. Basically boils down to bigger sensor = bigger image = more information = great details, especially when enlarging. Makes sense right? The larger the surface area the more ‘good stuff’ you can fit in a single image. 645 film (56 x 41.5mm) has 2.6 times the area of a full-frame 35mm (36 x 24mm.) I don’t have a full frame 35 mm camera to compare it do but its on my list as well. I still shoot for fun with my Canon Rebel G. A lot of time I shoot and then put it away for years.
Prime example. I brought the camera to Mammoth (Week 35) and when I got this roll back I found photos from 2011, and one from Oasis back in October, 2012. I brought it to New York with me in April but I never took more than 2 photos, that trip was all about the Fuji X 100S. These are technically not impressive, they won’t be especially with a built in flash. But they will be treasured all the same.
So all of these are from the same roll of expired 35mm Fuji film.
I have spent a lot of time talking with the guys at my local lab and reading reviews from the pros like Zack Arias. << I found Zach on Creative Live back in 2011 (which by the way is a tremendous resource, free live streaming tutorials) I keep going back to his blog in hopes of keeping relevant in the photography world (he also favors the Instax mini and Fuji gear like I do). I find our esthetics to be similar, we like crisp clean and realism. I also dig his mantra, GOYA (Get Off Your A$$) and go shoot something, I think that goes hand in hand with my Get $hit Done mug dont’ you?
Anyway after a lot of bookmarking and debating I decided what I couldn’t afford and then started looking at cheaper options. I wanted the Contax 645 that Ashley Goodwin shoots but that is an investment, and I am not a full blown studio so I opted for another camera she test drove, the Mamiya 645AF. I had planned to go with a Mamiya 6 or 7 to force myself into manual everything but the internet had other planes and dangled this ebay listing that I just could not resist. And even though the seller had relatively low feedback, all positive I nervously committed to buy. A week later box in lap, I cut through the tape to find everything packed neatly in original boxes. Whew, no boxes of towels here. The camera was heavy, so much for lightening the load on my shoulder. I slowly pieced the camera together and figured out how to load this new long skinny film. Didnt take me long to burn through a roll (there are only 16 shots on 120.) First set of scans come back next week and I’m already eyeballing a new portrait lens.
I kept to myself most of the day. I watched the videos and debated if I should post, what more can I say never forget 9/11. I want my kids to know the impact that day made on the entire world but I still shelter the 8 year old from media that day. I still gasp at the videos. I saw a few people tweet they were nervous about flying, others concerned over anniversary attacks that had yet to happen and I would be lying if I didn’t say I felt some anxiety too. I kept saying things to myself like, “stay present” and “be here.” We can’t allow ourselves to live in a fear driven world. It isn’t healthy. I credit a single book for getting me to that place. A book that helped me conquer an (unrelated) fear of flying. We are capable of so much with less fear and more kindness. I highly recommend you download The Power of Now (Eckhart Tolle) onto your Kindle.
I thought about professing my love for New York, I wrote about the trip and then never posted it. I don’t know why. I guess it felt a little unpolished as if I would be disrespectful if I didn’t construct the perfect precap of my first time in the city that never sleeps. Give me a couple more days and I will get it up so you can see why New York and the people just blew me away.
That night I sat alone quietly in meditation trying not to think but just to send love and peace out to the world. Best 20 minutes spent, no food or drugs can being me that kind of peace.
I paid Lady Liberty a visit the day before, I have driven by her numerous times (MacArthur/E MacArthur Place) but this day I took the time to park and get out and admire in her wheatpaste glory. Unfortunately someone has scratched the heck out of her face but she’s pretty intact. We don’t get a whole lotta street art here behind the ‘orange curtain’ so I’m pretty happy. artist:killyrslf_1
I finally picked picked up design bloggers at home, happy to see a friend Jonathan Lo (HappyMundane) featured! I met Jonathan a few years ago at a West Elm Event . He’s a local designer who shares a love for mid century modern. I really like his aesthetic and his use of strong lines and bold colors. His blog is very happy place and thats his room featured on the cover! I think I need to hire him.
Too hot to cook
We’ve been dealing with triple digit temps and fires so I have been holed up all week. I keep hearing my sister in my head say “push away from the desk” … I confessed while in Mammoth that I am probably in the worst shape I have ever been, I think I used the word skinny fat, cuz lets be honest I am. I have hardly any muscle mass, age and lack of movement has taken care of that. I don’t eat anymore and I know that is not helping. I feel a bit overwhelmed and when I get this way I cant even think of eating or if I do I want something awful (as in awfully GOOD) like fig newtons. Do I hit the gym weeks before the onslaught of holidays? Yeah maybe I should. I have a follow up appointment next week with my naturopath and again I will list all my symptoms (you ready? … insomnia, night sweats, palpitations, mental fog, irritability, leg/ankle swelling and anxiety) to which she will again ask, again, how often are you exercising? I will look at the floor. Followed by ‘have you thought about HRT? Groan.
So there’s my motivation for getting back in shape, staving off the inevitable closing of this bun oven and blogger butt. Another reason to get back into film. More film = less editing = better butt. Yeah. I can get behind that.
All of you GO OUTSIDE or at least look up from that phone and stretch your neck … take a few deep breaths while you are at it.
Let’s all feel better shall we?