I have been wanting to sit down and just write for the last few weeks but have never given myself permission to just blog for the sake of blogging. I didn’t know if I wanted to keep doing the same thing day in and day out anymore and a part of that is the sitting here, writing and rewriting in my attempt to gather a bunch of words into some semblance that best describes my life in a post.
There have been ups and downs and certainly new challenges as I began this new year, some of them I could have predicted others seems to come out of left field.
As my yoga instructor said the other day, don’t worry so much on hitting the pose, rather focus the transition, what is happening in that space as you move out of one pose and into another. That’s where you will find life.
So instead of beating myself up about stuff like my clutter, my debt, my unfinished everything. I’m trying to embrace my place in the aether, somewhere between the BEFORE and AFTER photos. I can learn to live in this place.
As I rush into each day I stop and acknowledge that everything will go according to that unseen plan and if I’m lucky a few bright spots will appear during the course of the day like beacons, giving me a gentle nudge to make a left instead of a right. I try to remain in a place of awe knowing there are unseen miracles happening all around me and that if I pay attention to the signs I just might catch one in progress.