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Then and Now

07.10.15 By Lindsey G 10 Comments

Can I just say how weird it feels  to blog? I miss it. Almost as much as I miss my cat. I’ve come to realize that in a sea of domestic duties, checkbook balancing and other parental responsibility that this little corner of the interwebz was more than a little side gig, it was my creative reprieve. When I don’t blog or journal my feelings begin to ball up and there’s blockage. Kinda like my intestines feel after I eat my weight in Cheez its, I’m bound, bloated and just miserable.

I’ve come to accept that my life has changed and with that change comes the need to flex and adapt to said changes. The one this that I absolutely LOVE about blogging is the documentation aspect. I have over 5 years now (granted there are some big gaps) but I have those years, mainly photos that show me what it was like to be a mom, to be the new kid on the block of blogs, to go through tremendous heartache, to return to the workforce, all of it.  Even when I don’t blog I am here, tweaking and fixing and editing and reading. I enjoy my own blog and even forgive myself for my short comings,  my overuse of commas and the word like…. along with my first world problems like finding jeans that are long enough.

Some of my favorite posts still stand the test of time (in my mind at least).

  • What’s In Your Wallet the story I wrote a month into this blog about how my BFF saved my bacon when I locked myself out of my car.
  • Dear 15 Year Old  the post I wrote for my newly turned 15 year old son Super B. I recently wrote him another on his 18th birthday, I will post soon.
  • Paint a Wall Camouflage that weekend I pulled off a surprise room makeover while my son was away at summer camp. Still pinned today, five years later!
  • and of course Processing and Praying the day my niece’s life was almost extinguished, what it was like staring death in the face.

What is the Same?

I’m always taken aback when I reread my Week In The Life from 2011, the week long photo documenting project from Ali Edwards, I am always struck by the similarities in seasons, year after year I seem to be doing the same things, taking the same photos enjoying what the seasons offer. If I look back I see …

I still take photos of my morning coffee ritual

NOW_THEN_COFFEE

My son still refuses to open his mouth when he smiles

super b 2011_2015

I still (and forever will) take photos of my egg breakfast

Breakfast_NOW_THEN

Succulents will appear in every monthly photo folder I save

SUCCULENTS

I will take photos of me taking photos for Instagram (I’m #meta like that)

instagram_now_then

I will never tire of photographing the big wheel

BIG_WHEEL_SPECTRUM_NOW_THEN

or palm trees for that matter.

PALM TREES

I still capture the eyes because they seem change the slowest

SUPER_A_2011_2015

and cry when I realize they are not babies anymore, not even close.

SUPERB_AND_ME

I will continue to beg my family to pull over at the SAME “Kodak moment” road trip after road trip.

FKYING_A_SIGN_2011-2015

I will seek like minded peeps and push myself out my comfort zone

JUST be TRUE

I will try a self portrait every now and then and think nothing of burning through a pack of film

SELFIE

I will never cease to look up

CLOUDS

or down

LOOK-DOWN

and out the window

AIRPLANE_WING_SHOTS

Year and year I will take the half selfie to see if its time for fillers, what happens after 45 !?!? Argh.

HALF_SELFIES

I will be reminded how much has changed for my sister, for her family and how far they have yet to go.

KIDS_NOW_THEN

I will document the return of the Monarchs

MONARCH_BUTTERFLY

and I will swallow hard when I come across photos of her.

WEEBEE_THEN_NOW

Its all there, on repeat, an infinite loop each of things in its own orbit on its own timeline and return schedule. Accepting the fact that there isn’t a place I need to strive to be at all times has been so freeing. Learning to live with life’s cycles is one of the best ways to FUNDAMENTALLY change your life (for the better!)

What’s Changed

  • I don’t stay up until 3 am working on the blog, my adrenals are stressed out enough.
  • I started a home renovation project that required not only for rooms to be emptied but every thing that came out of those room had to find a forever home (GAME CHANGER), now I walk around free of the elephant in the room.
  • I limit my screen time and read ONLY paper books and magazines at night.
  • I subscribe to a local CSA produce service to make sure my body is getting enough nutrients.
  • I shoot primarily film now which helps me reduce digital clutter and saves me millions of hours at my desk.
  • I drink water. As banal as that sounds it effects everything you do, trust me. Try it.
  • I move my body, often. Nothing strenuous just enough to keep this body in motion.

What’s Next

In the next month I will be packing up Super B as we get ready to help move him into his dorm in Arizona. About the same time I will be doing Ali’s Week In The Life, I’ve already bought the album, I’m fully committed. And although Super is only a state away and surely will be home first opportunity he can, I’m trying to prepare my heart for what’s on the horizon. That and find a new sitter for Super A. Oh boy. Life is changing for all of us.

To those who have stuck around since day one, thank you. You don’t realize how much it helps knowing that you are out there still reading, finding pity on my sporadic blog.  If I could I’d buy you all a bouquet of peonies and a honey vanilla latte.

PEONIES _ LATTE

Filed Under: me me me me Tagged With: blogging, photo documentary, Week In The Life

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  1. Auntie Les says

    07.10.15 at 10:37 pm

    Enjoyed the retrospective. So much has happened in just five years! Think what that is like for your Grandmother Claire of 95 years!
    Keep on Bloggin’…..it only gets better!
    XOXO

    Reply
    • Lindsey G says

      07.11.15 at 9:00 am

      Thanks Les, sometimes the only place to begin again is right smack in the middle which is kinda how I feel about turning 50 in a few years, I’m halfway there!

      Reply
  2. Anna says

    07.11.15 at 6:17 am

    I look around and can’t believe myself all the changes. I first “met” you on Ovusoft.

    It’s going so fast, I really need it to slow down.

    Reply
    • Lindsey G says

      07.11.15 at 9:02 am

      Ovusoft is really the place that inspired me to start blogging! That was 10 years ago, can you believe THAT !?! What a special time of connection that was.

      Reply
  3. Peggy says

    07.11.15 at 5:54 pm

    I still find your honesty so deeply moving. It takes courage to share your pain, your joys, your struggles and your triumphs. (I, too, enjoy a comma.) As long as you’re posting, I’ll be reading. I promise that you will enjoy the change in the relationship with Super B after goes away to college. Honor yourself, trust your instincts and breathe.

    Reply
    • Lindsey G says

      07.12.15 at 1:15 pm

      Thank you Peggy as always you speak from a place of wisdom, experience and most of all LOVE.

      Reply
  4. Kristi says

    07.11.15 at 7:26 pm

    Beautiful.

    My kitty died last week (two weeks now?) and every time I walk into my office I’m so sad. I feel ya.

    I can’t believe Super B is going to college!! ZOMG! Good luck!

    Reply
    • Lindsey G says

      07.12.15 at 1:19 pm

      Oh Kristi that makes me sad to hear I am so sorry, that’s two pets in less than a year? like you need reminding, oh girl. I have been working on a post about Weebee for a month, I can only take so much crying and writing, but it’s getting there.

      Can you believe I’m down to one kid at home? So weird.

      >^.,.^< hugs my friend

      Reply
  5. Leslie says

    07.12.15 at 12:07 am

    You’re amazing. You draw me in. I love reading your thoughts. ❤️

    Reply
    • Lindsey G says

      07.12.15 at 1:20 pm

      loveyoutoo.

      Reply

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