I logged on today to perform some housekeeping on the blog. The thing about having a blog is, it’s like anything else, a job, a vegetable garden, a dream, even a relationship, they all require attention and care. Ignore it and you may find yourself waking up one day to realize that the neglect has lead to deterioration and no amount of resuscitation will save you (or it.)

Some times you just have to start again from the beginning with a new seed, a new idea or just a new way of thinking.

The last time I posted was a year ago. I was at a crossroads and halfway into a year that was relentless but as the last sentence says I was “ready to push up my sleeves and get to work. ” Oh Lindsey you had no idea what you signed up for or what was about to unfold and go ahead and place that pre-order for a 2017 dumpster fire pin cuz you are going to need it.

Funny I thought I had seen my share of difficult years. You remember my niece’s accident during the summer of 2012. In a matter of minutes our lives changed forever, instantly re-prioritizing everything I thought was important.

And now after personally enduring some of THE MOST difficult months of my almost 50 years on this planet I see how those times, that moment when I witnessed life trying to escape the body of my 65 pound niece was the beginning of a very steep learning curve.

A year ago while I wrote the post on Resistance  I was finishing up a month long online course with Deepak Chopra and Martha Beck called The Quest. Upon completion I was asking myself some serious questions about my path. I was beginning to see how each year was much like the one before and the one before that.  Recognizing the stagnancy isn’t enough either, you must learn how to identify those things that hold you back from real change.  I’ve shared before my love for  Groundhog Day (now a hot Broadway musical) and its message,  we can chose to stay stuck (suffering) on the hamster wheel of life or we can “wake up” and chose freedom (non suffering).

Shackles on or shackles off.

Shit happens. People, jobs and relationships are going to let you down but what I have discovered is that its not the things that are the problem it’s my thinking around those things that is the problem. If you can separate the two the battle is half way won. The key is awareness and awareness of those ‘shackle-on’ thoughts is the first step in dissolving the fear-based thoughts that lead to your limiting beliefs about that person, that job and that relationship.

Lessons like the one above are life changing if you let them. Its all about choice right? Adjustment Bureau another great movie with a great message about free will and CHOICE. I see life as one big metaphor, a big set up to help you see what you need to change in order to level up as I call it. The people in your life are there to hold the mirror to you to help you see what you lack and where growth is not only needed but required in order for you and your essence to evolve. We don’t have forever here so why now stretch yourself to the furthermost corners of your mind and ‘see’ all your infinite potential. I bet if you looked that deep within you’d find that we are ALL on the same quest to find our way back home.

So what’s next?

Every August when facing the bill and the stack of money required to host this site (and all those way too large photo files I uploaded) I am called to make a decision, do I keep this little corner of the internet alive or do I let it go? I have decided to shut down the modchik blog. I will however archive all of my blog posts and migrate them over to my new site lindseygarrett.net. The site is not live yet but you can sign up here to get on the email list to receive updates about it and my new coaching business.  I recently completed Life Coach Training at the Martha Beck Institute and will be opening up my schedule for a few spots to do some free coaching so make sure you get on this list if you are interested!

The past seven years have been a roller coaster and its only been recently that I have realized that the harder I hang on the rougher the ride and the steeper the ups and downs.  I have learned that happiness does not come from late night sessions on the computer or the number of followers I have, in fact I think the more people that follow me, the more pressure I feel to perform and that is not a place from which I create my best self or content. As much as I love looking back at the last seven years I spend more time these days looking forward.

I realize the types of decisions I make today actively shape my reality and I chose to create a place of ease, acceptance and space for others who are in search of the same thing. Together we are better.

As Martha says, “All for Always.”